Stepping into the Unknown of Meditation

For years, I resisted meditation. I wrote it off completely—"My thoughts won’t stop, so clearly, meditation just isn’t for me." Sound familiar?

The myth of meditation is that our thoughts have to disappear.
But the truth?

Meditation helps us change our relationship with our thoughts. It teaches us to observe rather than react. To soften, instead of grip.

What I didn’t know at the time was that I had high-functioning anxiety.
And, what I really didn’t know… was that meditation would become a game changer.

In 2019, an opportunity came up to join a meditation community. I remember saying, hesitantly but honestly, “I think I’m ready.”

Fast forward six years, and now I guide morning meditation for this community of meditators.
Me. The former meditation-resister.

Meditation disrupts our inner landscape. It brings the unseen into the seen. It surfaces what we've been subconsciously suppressing and gently places it into our awareness.

Every time I sit in meditation, or do breathwork, I'm stepping into the unknown. Connecting to nothing but myself. I never know what will show up:
A wave of emotion.
Unprocessed grief.

A belief or pattern no longer serving me.

My inner child
Joy, peace, happiness
Or maybe… nothing at all.

But in the stillness of that unknown, healing happens.It’s where I’ve learned to surrender, to let whatever is meant to rise, rise.
To name it.
To feel it.
And, then… to release it.

The truth is, stepping into the unknown internally; into silence, stillness, presence, into self can be just as transformative, as the boldest external move. Sometimes, it’s even more so.